Thanks God!! Everything sounds fine for my new job.

Me @ new workplace.

My lovely colleague Eva.

食緊士多啤啤既遠芳同事!! 個樣係咪特別唔同呢...咪睇佢平時對住份THESIS個樣咁呆咁悶.....一拎起粒士啤多莉成個人唔同哂...一副好滿足既樣!! (Copy from Tobi Kwok's xanga)

我經常跟教會的弟兄姊妹說, 我很感恩, 神把我放在這裡兩年, 有很多同路人在這裡!!

雖然academic的setting也不會怎樣aggressive和雜複, 但這裡的人, 除了d老細之外, 是特別好人.

也知道自己就是性格傻下傻下, 多謝大家百般容忍!!

我好想快d 寫Acknowledgment 那頁, 然後把大家的名字也寫落去.

特别想多謝我的師姐同師太肥貓, 不過肥貓竟然落order不準我acknowlege她,

PhD degree又不太在乎, 名名利利又視無, 果然兩袖清風.

各方好友, 之前要大家担心了, 我會好努力把thesis寫好.

I become much better lu, thanks God.

I am recovering, not having headache, stomachahe and etc..now

After frustration, I start realizing everything is really under God's supervision.

I am facing a situation that I really don't want.

Instead of trying my very best to put my own effort to fight, I claimed down and prayed.

"Please have all this pain released and guide me to do everything."

I had a job interview for an Analyst position, interesting me like crazy. Impressing me so so much- a non-ordinary MPhil in Microbiologist, I have a chance to get an interview from a global commercial company (Headquarter in New York, even more impressing!). But I thought I messed it up so so bad. I was late and so sick and answered their questions in an nonsense way.

Well...I did recieved a call from them for a written exam. No matter the result will be, I was really glad. I learned to claim up and wait. I never know whether it will be the final decision or not. Who knows? Only God would know.

Because of an unknown reason, I am losing a treasurable friend...not asking why but would put my friend's need in prayer, having a heavy burden...that weighs too sad. As well as we are both have joy within God, maybe whether we are good/hi-bye friend is not matter...Even still sad anyway...

I have such a good memory--- can't help.

好一段日子沒update xanga,

這兩三個星期的狀態很不同, 身心靈也是...

連續發生的事, 令我不斷wonder 自己, 是我handle得差嗎? 我有問題嗎?

忍不住問神, N 咁多個why, 問自己N咁多個what's if. 感覺很辛苦

加上Thesis的壓力, 之前没有多心機寫, 不懂寫, 感覺到兩年自己gain不到甚麽,

knowledage上還可以, 但做research的approach, 我其實不懂...

依家deadline迫到來, 幾沒心機都要把它嘔出來.

加上找工作, 好confusion lei, 其實也不是太担心找不到工, 只是怕入錯行.

己有些offer, benefit也不錯的, 但機於自己的一些硬頸我還是turn down了.

這幾個星期我經常頭痛, 有時也會胃痛和肚子痛 (但應該跟食嘢無關),

有晚在醫院走的時候, 個頭痛到死, 要飛的士返dorm.

上星期跟個friend去睇movie, suppose 是好好笑的, 但我一点心機没有, 不斷睇錶等場.

神其實給了我一個很開朗, 很容易開心快樂的性格, 我還是那種一点也藏不住的.

連續兩個主日, 也有姊妹走來問我:"Fonie, 你無事吖嘛?". 我有点奇怪, 為甚麽她們會這樣問.

兩個也給我相同的答案: "你成日笑架, 但你今日少左好多."

我aware到跟神遠的日子, 喜樂也似跟着除之而去.

生活細節裡面, 自己做了d 好傻瓜的東西, 就會trigger到一個comment: stupid, navie and spoiled.

Hahaha....

謝謝身邊小天使的鼓勵, 叫我要再仰望神, 雖然這個situation仍然存在,

但我只能依靠神, 就憑信心將一切交上. 有些東西, 卻是很可惜...

但如果神要給我, 最後還是會成就的.

好啦, 我要"打回原形", keep on 無知and hahaha la.

很guilty, 我潛在裡面的小姐仔情緒/脾氣昨天爆發了,

我不自覺地不繼去針對一位朋友, 其實她没有得罪我, 反之她是一個極easy come, easy go 的人.

我和她太熟...但我真的不明白, 我對身邊的人, 朋友,弟兄姊妹,best friend以及家人, 我很少很harsh.

妹妹做錯了我會激氣,訓話. 不會無故發洩自己的情緒.

上一次我見梁太的時候,說到我怎樣跟家人相處. 她甚至說:"嘩, 你很spoil (縰容) 你的媽媽!".

我原來可以對人這樣extreme....忽然間很驚....

對不起, Please forgive me...求神教導.